Quarantine, Week 4 | Adult Tantrums

I've always been a crier. It's my release for nearly every possible emotion. Happy tears, sad tears, frustrated tears, angry tears, stress tears, no-reason tears - they're all a thing for me. This week alone, I think I've shed every kind.

We've been quarantined for one month, and I've experienced a wide range of emotions in that short time. In the last 30 days, we've experienced some of my favorite family moments, but I have also found myself spiraling into the worry zone regularly.

Are the kids getting too much screen time? Should I be preparing more nutritious meals? Is this distance learning setting them back academically? Will they go back to school this year? Will school start on time next year? Are the kids resenting me for trying to work during the day and not being with them? Should I plan more activities? Is Mitch safe going to work? Will there be a Minnesota State Fair? I mean, some pretty hard-hitting worries here, people. Have you ever had fair cheese curds? It's a real concern! 😉

My mind wanders, and crying fits are more frequent. I don't love referring to them as adult tantrums, but I mean - that's sort of what they are. An outburst of frustration. And you know what, I think that's allowed. We're allowed to be frustrated, and sad, and mad, and happy, and worried - maybe even all those crazy emotions at the very same moment.

I'm lucky enough to have an incredible family and great friends who lift me daily. This time is weird, but give yourself some grace. I bet you're doing a great job.

I've finally decided if you feel like crying, cry. Want to scream? Let it out! Maybe buy yourself a present, because, gosh darn it - you deserve it! I did that, and I was delighted when my locket showed up on my doorstep. If it brings you joy, do it. If it makes you feel better, do it. Remember to take care of yourself too.


We're all in this together, and if you haven't heard it today - I think you're doing great.

Stay safe and cry if you want to.

The Helleen's

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